如常日月少转折。

过客自娱井底坐，

往来佳绩实几何？

相里今载易主频，

伴年漂萍逐波勤。

一朝起意去温淖，

生得七尺当向秦。

这半年里发生的变化多且大，也还没有告一段落。在一个地方多久才算久？要离开一个地方

多远才算远？多频仍的变化才算快？多翻覆的出离才算大？

……

有爱，在一个人的心里多久都不算久。有他/她，离开家多远都不算远。有牵挂，多频繁的

变化都来去从容。有默契，多颠覆的变迁都在股掌之中。

谢谢敏。祝你生日快乐。天天快乐。一生快乐。

每年此时，打油一首。今冬的特别地方，是每天静候着敏的消息。游学起居之余，也捎来一衣带水处的红砖碧瓦，风土人情。那定是个很有趣的地方，时间在空间上的交错，让遗失的历史片段在另一个地方得以重现，真实的竟像是虚构。敏寄来的那些明信片上，金阁寺的金殿映水，银阁寺的雪压青松，甚至古朴到原始的纪念戳，如果从前见过，那一定是在我的梦里。

红叶殷殷清水寺，可曾见识了大唐盛世；岚山脚下渡月桥，是不是载得动南宋晚秋。感谢敏和我分享这些所见所得。祝张敏生日快乐。天天快乐。一生快乐。

没有国界，超越语言。

一遍遍地听，竟让人禁不住地疯狂想家了……

再来一张，容哥相机里的，也很反映实际情况。by Jessica He, 20091023于鹅和鸭农庄，van-SS Team Morale Event.

[Update, Nov.15, 2009]

稍微做了一下下，清晰一些。

我的家在内蒙古包头市——一个因为重工业才发展起来的城市，几十万人都是包钢的人，我也是。那是一个让没有到过如此之大企业的人没法想象的一个地方，一条叫做昆都(du1)仑的季节河，河的东面是居民的城区，河的西面是厂区，很大的厂区，很大。从选矿洗煤，到炼铁炼钢，从初轧无缝，到氧气热电……你能想象的所有和钢铁的life cycle有关的大大小小的厂子都在这里，我们称作河西。污染，自是不会少的。包头纬度大约在西风带上，常年刮的是西北风。厂在西，上风口；家在东，下风口。小时候，贯穿头上的天空是两条橙色烟带，粗粗的，被叫作“黄龙”，刚到的人甚至会以为是云彩。哪里有整日的红黄云彩嘛，那是从焦化厂排出来的烟。

差不多到了90年代末，人们开始有意识地谈论污染、解决污染了。后来的黄龙消失，是当地很不小的一条新闻。不过，我们的喜悦没有持续的太久，随之而来铺天盖地的就是国有大中型企业相继崩溃的那些日子了。所庆幸的是，钢铁厂的衰落与转型，并没有耽误太多城市环境的治理。

离开家是1994年，之后回去的少之又少。听到那边的关于环境的消息倒是出人意料的好。层出的小区花园，改善的城市广场，梅花鹿嬉戏在夏夜的草地上——鹿回到了被称作“鹿城”的地方（包头[包克图]在蒙语发音里是“有鹿的地方”），心里有一样的高兴虽然还没有机会自己亲自回去看上一看。有时候却也会想，本来一直就是那样的好该多幸福哪。那枚小小的市徽依然珍藏在存放儿时宝贝的抽屉里。所以珍藏，因为上面有一只矫健的梅花鹿。所以珍藏，因为直到离开家，都没有见到过活生生的鹿。

先前那四十年的挥霍，对环境肆意的挥霍是有代价的。想想那些在高危车间工作而提前退休的工人，想想那些河西生活受了工业排放直接污染的农民，想想和自己一样的同龄人，在高氟地区度过长身体的年代，牙齿上留下的那些将伴随一辈子的暗黄痕迹（这世界不只低氟是有问题的）……

所幸的是，我们的城市，这一切正在好起来了。而不幸的是，城市的好，仅仅是那些城市的好，或者那些城市其实也没有真的更好。

上一张照片，比较反映实际情况。by Jessica He, 20091023于鹅和鸭农庄，van-SS Team Morale Event.

http://blog.wenxuecity.com/blogview.php?date=200910&postID=1381

越来越多的抱怨，应该说已经不仅仅是偶尔为之了。越深地走进现实的生活，越是对“十之八九”人生事的切肤体验，纠结，纠结。

是什么让自己会有落泪的不自觉？人道上最基础的关爱，人性里最纯粹的大爱，还是失望背后的希望，抑或奢望？

更或是，其实自己根本就做不了什么。

于是默念“常思一二，天雨流芳”。

本来就打算这样写完了，可是一个声音突然敲打心门，他来自Too Loud A Solitude。其实自己根本不算了解他，只是在那篇纪念罗志华的文章里(见《读库0804》作者唐铮，豆瓣全文)提到了，于是从YouTube上找到改编的木偶动画预告片。半个早上，想找到更多的一点内容而最终不得。豆瓣上的分数高高，可书评几乎是空的，有幸读过的大多来自那两个小岛。只有少数的例外，这事儿本身也让人觉得带着特立独行的孤独颜色。

还能怎样呢？只能默念“常思一二，天雨流芳”。

是一国之君

有区别么

是岭国的兴衰

是现世的分合

有区别么

是大神仙班净土琼浆

是英雄宝马江山美人

有区别么

是凡间的追逐与抛弃

是轮回的升迁与堕落

有区别么

是故事凝成史诗

是历史照进现实

有区别么

卑微的晋美啊，请不要为神把故事收走了而哀伤。故事找到你，不是你天赋异禀，故事离你而去，也不是天神迁怒。

单纯的晋美啊，请不要为摘下“仲肯”的帽子而哀伤。故事终归是会有结局，而结局也不会距离意料太远。你留恋，不是出于喜爱，你追寻，也不是出于信仰。

梦是心在睡眠上的投影，心是世界在你我身上的投影；故事是历史在仲肯帽下的投影，现在是过去在今天的投影。总会有那样的情形：我们梦见了那个世界，更或者说是当“梦”想照进现实，就让他来吧。

The only task was to attend the ExPo-Tech program. All the time I explained it as a training, although it is stressed as a journey at the kicked off meeting months before. I totally agree with Karen that it is so much more than a training. Training usually gives one person some things like knowledge, skills, techniques. To talk about journey, it mainly means you are part of it other than standing outside. Here you learn, you experience, you grow. The only difference from general journey is that no goal is predefined. The only commitment is our time. The achievements totally depend every individual.

The content focuses on personality, networking, and communications. It added some about self-awareness as well. The 3.5-day-long time was full of these bunch of things, which made me exited, surprised, and a little bit tired. Hardly can I spell out every details. Let me try to highlight some points which impressed me a lot.

CREDIBILITY. I became to recognizing the importance of it as soon as I learn about this word, which is definitely one of the core values for the western people. To my understanding so far, it is kind of capability that others can expect something on you, although it is not necessary they do require that from you. They know you can make it. They believe you can achieve it. No promises, no conditions, only credit. Also, that reminded me that the whole western world is build on a solid credit base. Credibility is just like the sun rising everyday. I’d ever taken honesty as the most important thing to me. From now on, it is upgraded to credibility. Where is your sun? Is it rising tomorrow?

YOUR BUSINESS V.S. MY BUSINESS. It’s well-known that the western people do not consider others as we Chinese do. Basically they are described more self-centric. They enjoy living isolate. They care about privacy. They break into your speech suddenly if they have question. They drive the children out once they are 18. They do not even take care of the elders. Is it true? Perhaps mainly yes. However, you may also find some other interesting things. They respect your greatness. They donate a lot. They serve the society. They enjoy being volunteers. They approach to help you out as soon as you are lost. They never hesitate show up the greatest smile to you. What’s up? Why these things look so different from each other? I suppose they are clearly separate things of what’s your business and what’s my business. Never step on others’ feet. Nor boring me by attempting to do me a favor without permission. Giving someone a hand is greatly praised. But, it must be necessary and the privacy is not violated.

CULTURE DIFFERENCE. It is even more complicated than that I can imagine. One game from Day 1 is to select top 6 personal important words from a bunch of cards labeled with words such as curiosity, passion, family, innovation, integrity, health, blabla. Possible you can figure out that curiosity must be have for the western guys. However, can you imagine that family is seldom included in their selection? Neither is the health. We randomly selected a partner to share the top 6 words with each other. It turned out to be a very small intersection.  The paragraph above can add to this point as well. Why it seems somewhat wired to us? It is roughly because the difference between cultures.

LANGUAGE PROBLEM. Again and again I suffered from the fact that English is my second language. Thinking, translating, then communicating. There’s an extra step, which make me mad, especially in the small group discussion. Conversation kept flowing quickly from time to time. It is really hard to concentrate on both the idea and the language. Whatever, everything around language stuffs were improved more or less. I had no choice but try my best to catch up. One more personal trick is that speak aloud is really more important and more acceptable than murmured without language problem, especially for the western people. They will pass you if you cannot be heard clearly twice.

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Watched one NBA game. Houston Rocket V.S. Seattle Super Sonic. 109:107 Yao was not bad.

Had a tour on the Museum of Flight. Amazing.

Bought two books.

1. Yoga – The Path to Holistic Health by B.K.S Iyengar.
2. The Complete Sherlock Holmes

Seattle was clear and shinning. But San Francisco was raining.